Muck sounds a little harsh, because there is order to all of this, Muck sounds a bit murky. The thought Dragon is spilling thoughts in being all the time some many based on our past and how we believe those thoughts into being real. When like Jesus said before his ideas here stolen and scribed for the benefit of the few. God is love and we are all god. The more Godlike or jesus like or whatever the more power we have to create our world and not accept that world is real or doing something to us, We create it all in our thoughts, a Quantum Physicist would say everything that we perceive as solid isn't it just that we have created the idea of existence and so many others are creating the same thoughts that somehow these predominant thoughts create an object. But the scientist know you can break down so called objects forever ad infinitum, they can get past photons and quirks yet they know there is more and then there will be more after that. So if thoughts are the only thing that is divine and has the power to create, how do we avoid entrenched thoughts that create suffering like the loss of a loved one or a lover or any dissappointment that we have manifested as real and something that was done to us? Partly to think only about the welfare of others and remember the concept that we are the creator. I remember reading Ram Das in High School and he kept talking about the divine creator, and its our thoughts that create being, he was stuck on this biology thing that we are so consumed with self and physical nature, yet our physical nature is just energy swirling and chemicals flying and all because our thoughts create this. He also talked about the divine mother the fact that women who create their lives yet for whatever cosmic reason are the ones that bear children, truly bring into existence souls and minds. The mystery of that yet we all just convention into biology oh it was the fucking etc. Not exactly child birth and Mothers are playing with the divine even if they don't know it. Most moms do that is why the nurture because it is nice to love something more than yourself or concept of self and hopefully that helps the child to know less suffering although the minute the cold world hits ists sensory receptors the creator in it is taking shape... So think good thoughts sounds easy enough avoid bad thoughts. But it is the most difficult thing in a Western ultra material world. But we start by practicing, sitting, meditation, reigning the mind in of its negative thoughts and conventions it has created over time and human conditioning, Rinpoche Sakyong Mipham says don't be intimidated that the world you have created thus far is bad b/c it can and will change if you believe it will. If there is difficulty to find meaning it is predominately about suffering. The physical world causes suffering and you have to accept that it will at times, but it is the thoughts that make it a part of your being. He says that it is heroic and godlike even if the task seems so great to just acknowledge one thought a day as unreal,,like meditating if during the process you can acknowledge and let go of just one thought and even greater many or all discursive thought then you are being heroic and closer to divinity. Wow one discursive thought at a time let go of and we are heroic. Thats how there is bliss. Then there is Love which is good, if we truly find a way to love others,, energy and vibrations more than the idea of our self, then we find bliss more regularly. Should it be easy to have compassion for someone who is mean vindicive manipulated and your enemy by all assoications your mind creates. It sounds hard, but it isn't if you realize that why their actions are brought into existence is because of the suffering they choose to have in their spirit. We should love everyone because we suffer at times we know that everyone suffers and by praying or meditating for those who you see as bad and enemies because of their suffering you send love and healing power into the universe. Quantum Physics says that through our eyes we gather 6 million bits of information per minute. Wow, but on average all our minds are willing to process and compartmentalize and make real are 2000 bits a minute. So we are not creating a very real reality by only being able to shelf that few bits of information. Now imagine because we have conventions and have been brought up and conditioned by the world in certain ways that of those measley 2000 bits we choose the negative or whatever serves our "self" the most,,that is the nature of the powerful organ the brain and that overriding survival function that gets in the way sometimes,, and what if we are in a state of suffering,How poorly are we going to use that information, things are going to "happen" one because it the law of attraction. Like always attracts like. Like me falling for this beautiful woman in the last several months, in my mind this connection was going to be huge, I loved how hot she was, how sensual, her great ass, we liked the same kind of music, books, she was much younger which helped be "feel" younger, back to the physical ...the sex was perfect chemical explosions long lasting and multiple orgasms abounded heightened with every touch or sound or look. My mind had said check, check, check and yes check because on a physical level and seeming spritual level everything was real. But it wasn't, This girl was suffering a ton of old thoughts she was holding on to. Coming out of a long relationship that obviously wounded her and she was trying so hard to be ok but her thoughts of the past and suffering didn't allow us to continue or connect even further. But the truth is that is what I was attracting someone like myself who has all these negative thoughts at the time about my divorce the bad relationship how much like a failure I felt in the relationship category. How lonely I was I a found someone lonely sure lonliness is physical, not getting to be around people, share laughter etc. but it is more about thinking that you won't experience those things again, which is not true can be if you believe it much... I meet this girl in a place where I am further away from the distorted thoughts of love and sharing and she is in a place nearer the same and we are both believing that we deserve bliss and are sending out happiness we receive it back even greater, then who knows she could have been my lifes partner. With in mind nothing is real except impermanence. I think sometimes maybe I will run into her a year or so from now and it would happen again and this time be more joyful. Then I realize that is just ego and thinking about trying fix something or have great sex again. When because of impermanence many of the qualities I adored about her might be gone or even moved on to a higher place beyond my ability to love and it could be whether you are a metaphysicist, Christian, Tibetan buddhist, there is still that idea that what we had was good in many ways but for the real attraction to be pure and about love and not self it might take forever in this life for those qualities to ever match up, or in many traditions the next life,,,,, or the next and the next and the next. I will eventually get over this idea of lonliness because the universe and beyond is there for the creating. So it might not be Ms. Gap that I am looking for or the hope that I was what she is looking for. Maybe it was just close what we were attacting to each other but b/c it all that magnetic storm we bringing out thoughts of suffering and ultimately that is not what you want. Right? right. So the more love and compassion you truly have for others, honest love of others energies and needs and the more we focus on it or meditate on it and send it into the universe especially when given the opportunity to affect people and deny that our self is real other than what our thoughts create, then we will attract events, people, manifested things into our life that are about the love we are sending out, and that just confirms God or Love or whatever and then we begin to live on a higher plane. The more we truly love the more we will be loved. My sister said here teacher down in Louisiana told her something as they were doing some waking meditiation and the cars are hurling down the freeway, and eveyone was a bit distracted why because that is what the mind does it creates and is easily distracted because we feel the need for all these thoughts in our minds to be solid and they ain't, but our mind fights that contiually but as we start to see it for what it is through practice practice practice we break down those shackling conventions and conditions our lifes have created as real and start to become the creator of something bigger that we can even imagine or that science can imagine. We become the true Observer of the universe and we vibrate in a way to attract "good" things into our being and spirit and mind. Oh Yea Rinpoche in LA, he said as he observed everyone getting a little distracted.. you hear those cars with people in them flying throught the cosmos,,, convention would say they are worrying heading to an appointment, trying to pick up dinner, being angered they just got cut off etc etc.....but his thoughts said no all those people flying about are on the road to happiness and riding away from suffering. That is the truth, the level which those folks know that is very different but because they all have the power to love and to suffer if they are deliberate in trying to create love, beauty, they will attract happiness and love and beauty and hopefully an enlightened state. The reason I write and am going to start writing these blogs is to create something "real" in my mind that creates harmony for others and hopefully in turn comes back to me that way. It is part of the practice and I don't live completely in these thoughts but I hope to one day, I am still addicted to touching a beautiful woman, having whisky to ease the pain, a wonderful spliff and I will continue to enjoy all those things just not let the desire of these things create me. All good things in all good time. Sex, Drugs Rock n Roll a concept lived by for many years, and one that if you are truly putting compassion out there can be dabbled with and enjoyed if you are strong enough in spirit to not let them cause you suffering b/c your mind created that they are the only things that can cause you happiness. Na just part of the thoughts that can cause you happiness. The beauty of the human touch, the sedating power of a dram of Scotch or the laughter and ease a spliff can make you feel, the joy of a song even though many times we relate to the suffering as much as the bliss. All good things in all good time. Take the good and leave the rest, you have to leave the rest don't accept all the physical good and bad just the good feeling. Jerry taught me more than I will ever know and yet I know his suffering took him away from this plane too early. God is love. Ask, believe(the hard part), and receive what it is you deserve and truly need.
"Whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, Believing, ye shall receive" Mark 21:22
Gotta Believe and visualize your world as joyful and infinite in possibilites to make you(universe) happy. When your down, play a great song, snap yo' fingers and look to the sun and clouds and don't ask why just say wow, and try to hold a smile for as long as you can, then be good, and when the bad news feeling hits again, remember what you truly believe is what is creating your world your emotions and your sense of well being. IN closing I LO-UH-UH-UH-VE YOU AND YOU LOVE ME.
Peace ya'll praying for New Orleans some more today, bring back the bliss, the joy of music, people diversity, ah the food, the city the cosmos that is noLA. People who suffer deserve to be reminded it will also pass and joy is around the corner creeping closer every instance. Amen./