Just got up from sitting. So I wan to receive the abundance of the Universe and I want vibrate that abundance back into the universe. Part of my meditation is getting throught that spiritual materialism. So much of what I am trying to conquer is at times to serve self, or is it? Maybe Because I really am sending out love to others and conciously doing it now all the time that it is ok to receive the universe and perhaps the wealth, health, and good relationships that it brings. The world is bigger than big. I breath to be and think of the travel and my relationship to it all. Small I am but significant. I picture myself on the cushion in my room, on my street, then further out in Nashville, then TN then North American then just on the shining Blue Ball then further among the neighboring planets then out into the Solar System then the Galaxy Milky way, now the Milky way is a spec and cosmos and bright lights of energy and tons of space reflect all the way back to me on my cushion and I vibrate with it all honestly wrestling with the idea that I am solid and not just part of the echoing of energy and then when I do this I realize I am significant, I am part of it all and becausing I am practicin being part of it I am. So I know I am sending out the abundance and it is ok to receive why because I will send it back out as I receive it. I began having this image like when a ipod is syncing up you have the little recycle arrows churning syncing the itunes with the ipod and it made sense. When I meditate I am syncing up with the universe. I actually pictue that arrow cycling thru my head down through my body and out again into the universe and then back into my head thru the body out into the universe ad infinitum. I am accepting the beauty and love and ability to learn about the universe and sending it back out and hopefully vibrating with all of it. Bodichitta. I was in the book store last night couldn't find what I wanted at the library I ended up buying Echoing Silence Thomas Merton on the Vocation of Writing. That writing is a spiritual task and that it can be significant in creating our world because we are the creators of the world and self. It is a way to acknowledge this crazy notion of self and what it needs and a way of dissipating it and vibrating with everything not just a lone but powerful notion of what we are. I haven't really started to read it but I think it will be a good book that I ran into or the universe sent me or whatever. As I am checking out I notice this real hip looking lady with her maybe 4 or 5 year old with tons of books and arts and crafts and she is a little uneasy b/c she doesn't have enough hands for all the stuff and her daughter. Then I notice it is Martina McBride, who althogh I am not a huge Country Music fan I have heard great stories about her helping people make it in the biz and she recorded that song about the special needs kid who experienced life on a different level but very spiritual and when he heard the Beatles he would beam and everyone would experience the love on the same level with him through those songs. Ok that is the cosmic response I have especially since she was writing about My Miles she didn't know it but Miles has this crazy connection to the Beatles too and it makes me so happy to see him appreciate life and the cosmos even though he is somewhat blind non verbal and challenged by this physical plane on so many levels yet most of the time he vibrates love..That is pretty much all he really knows, except hunger etc. So I don't want to make a scene and as we get eye contact checking out, I had already spoken to her daughter, I say Ms McBride I want to tell you I love your voice, and the look she had that she might be accosted by some crazy fan or the intense state she was in trying to multi-task seemed to just release and then I asked are you recording and she said I just finished it should be out in early April, and she beamed , I said I look forward to it, she looked me in the eye and said thank you and I said thank you back. Now I try to do this with all strangers if there is some praise or thanks to give I want to spit it out, because it makes me feel good that is the syncing. So thank you universe, I have so much to be thankful for. I want everybody to move away from suffering and I pray that it will take some of the suffering out of me because God is love the universe vibrates with harmony when Bodichitta is tapped into and sure part of why I want to send it is because I wan to receive it and I don't think I am trapped in spiritual materialism except a little. Its not a sin it just is less than enlightened at times. There is no hell there is no sin just changing states of mind.Hell is here and neagative thoughts are really the only sin and especially if you are negative about yourself or your cosmic neighbors. Those thoughts bad ones create manifested evil and what not , and we see it everyday all the time but it doesn't mean that the path we are on might not be more powerful and the idea of an enlightend society has to be pursued. Do you part little spec and vibrate with it all, and all is still more than I can imagine now, but I will keep imagining now. I love you and you love me.